Thursday, March 29, 2007

signs point to no

I don't believe in precognition. I know that none of us can see the future.

But I also know that every time the ultrasound technician said the babies were perfect, with strong heartbeats, measuring right on schedule, I turned my face away from the screen.

When she handed me a set of black and white photos, I smiled, said thank you, and threw them out as as soon as I left the office.

5 comments:

LeRoy Dissing said...

You don't believe in precognition yet through away the ultrasound photos. Quite a tragic irony. Who said we were not walking contradictions some of the times?

Or is it that history left unaltered often repeats itself?

Either way the results can be create loss which in and of itself is an irony too. How can one create nothing?

Sara said...

Niobe, that's so sad. I hope today goes/is going well for you at the gc appointment. Take care.

Lori said...

Niobe- I had a sinking feeling my entire pregnancy with my twins, but kept trying to shake it. Like you, I don't believe in precognition and yet I have no way of explaining what I felt and ultimately the "truth" to those feelings.

May today bring you hope and at least the promise of new possibilities.

Sheila said...

Oh, Niobe. I wish that those anxieties and fears had led to a different conclusion. I hope so much that the appointment today is the beginning of a happier story.

Magpie said...

ESP can be weird and powerful. I don't really believe in it, yet I know two people with such powers of...something...that it's like ESP really does exist. Strange and unsettling.