Wednesday, November 21, 2007

watching and waiting


Above, you can see the saucerful of costume jewelry on the window ledge, the lens's reflection conjuring the pearls into staring eyes.

The clinic called and told us that we have a transfer date tentatively scheduled for January. Somehow, I'm not able to generate a lot of optimism for the prospect. But we're going forward anyway, dragging our doubts along behind us.

37 comments:

LAS said...

They do look like eyes!! I'll be hoping for the best for you!!

Waiting Amy said...

I understand how it can be hard to be optimistic. But as you said, just the act of going forward shows some degree of hope. Its a bit how I've been feeling today too.

I'm so hoping all goes well.

Tash said...

The only way is through it. Put the doubts on a trailer, and go! optimism be damned. (What did you decide on for tomorrow? I ask only because my bourbon mashed sweet potatoes are pretty damn good, if I say so myself.)

niobe said...

Las: Eyes, huh? Actually, now that I look at them more closely, I'm seeing a resemblance to a different, slightly more, um, southerly body part. But that's probably just my dirty little mind.

thailandchani said...

I'll be hoping the best for you because I know you are so committed to it.

(They look like eyes. :)

Lori said...

See? I told you that you had a third eye. And a fourth and a fifth and a sixth...

Another captivating image. Fingers crossed for you in January.

Julia said...

i see the body part now. Too close together, I guess.

Optimism is highly overrated. You can let it in after you bring one (or two) of them living babies home.

LAS said...

Ha ha ha!

thirtysomething said...

I enjoyed this picture! Very funny.
Hoping along with you in January.

Julie Pippert said...

Very Fitzgeraldian!

As for optimism...I felt a huge pressure to alway be optimistic for cycles. "Increases success!" they chirruped. I find my realism works for me.

Many good thoughts for you.

Julie
Using My Words

Becky said...

I see the unmentionables as well, Niobe.

I hope that all goes well.

Libby said...

Hmm, what bodacious, er, EYES you have there.

All the luck in the world for your cycle, my dear.

meg said...

January is not that far away now.
And an actual date is progress--so that's an altogether good thing.

Pamela Jeanne said...

As the previous visitors have said, progress! And, frankly, January sounds preferably to December what with all the various distractions. You can start the new year off in a good way.

Cool photo.

Bon said...

once more into the breach...

i wish you luck, with this, and peace with it.

and for what it's worth, i'm happy to be optimistic for you - it would be a pleasure, actually. :) so much easier to hope when the risks are not borne by oneself, of course. maybe we could do an optimism tradeoff?

slouching mom said...

i love the colors in the boob shot! heh.

i'm glad you're going forward. yes. i am.

Maddie's Mom said...

I didn't see eyes until you said that. I say other body parts.

I wish you the best.

painted maypole said...

fingers crossed.

painted maypole said...

fingers crossed.

Magpie said...

We all can be optimistic for you. I know I am.

Suz said...

I could never / can never be optimistic for myself, but I can hold onto it for you, closely and tightly.

I know you can hear me... said...

Great shot! And you're totally right - they DO look like eyes. Very cool.

My fingers and toes and everything else are crossed and optimistic for you!!

Monica said...

What Suz said. I'll be optimistic for you. And sometimes just having a date makes it better.

I love costume pearls. They remind me of my mother.

Which Box said...

I saw eyes, too, until reading other's comments.....

the eyes are kind of creepy, actually. Or maybe like fish eggs, the tiny little embryo developing inside.

Good luck. I hope your doubts don't weigh you down too much.

MissedConceptions said...

I see fish eggs, too.
Does this photo come with free psychological evaluation?

I have all the optimism in the world for anyone but myself.

How many embryos do you have frozen?

MissedConceptions

Birdies Mama said...

I too am feeling the optimism....sweetie we are all here for you.

There is something "egg like" about that photo.....the saucerful of "costume jewelery".

I love your photos Niobe. They always speak to so much of what you seem to be feeling.

My Reality said...

You do not have to generate optimism.

Optimism is really overrated. I much prefer realism.

S. said...

Faith, yes? Some kind of faith is there, along with the doubts. That it's better to try than *not* to.

Cate said...

I will be optimistic for you. I only charge a nominal fee.
I hope you have a nice Thanksgiving, in spite of it all.

Caro said...

fingers crossed.

Sarah said...

the good news is hope and optimism have nothing to do with whether it will actually work. personally i'm a huge fan of low expectations.

Rebecca said...

Like Caro said, fingers crossed.

christina(apronstrings) said...

well i know it's hard, but moving forward is *something.* scary as hell, but something.

Kristen said...

I've got all my crossables crossed for some good news for the New Year. XOXO

Amelie said...

I wonder how much further down you meant. That's got to be my dirty mind...
Honestly, after all the set-backs I'd have trouble with optimism as well. I will have some for you nevertheless, a lot actually.

Artblog said...

Watching and waiting with you...

Christine said...

like painted maypole, my fingers are crossed. i'm glad this is happening. . .