no news is no news
As you've probably noticed, I've been avoiding saying anything about the upcoming transfer. The main reason for that is, while the timing is still uncertain, it keeps getting pushed back farther and farther. It's not for medical reasons -- there are just innumerable papers and forms to be drafted, reviewed, and signed by everyone concerned and coordinating all of this is turning out to take longer than expected.
At this point, I think that, realistically, we're looking at mid-to-late February. Oddly enough, this doesn't seem to bother me. I feel as if, as long as the transfer hasn't happened, I can feel somewhat hopeful that it's going to succeed. And, honestly, it still seems to me incredible, in the sense that I have trouble actually believing it, that it's going to happen.
One thing I've learned, though, is that I'm not going to have the option of remaining in blissful ignorance, because I'm required to be physically present to sign a release at the time of the transfer. Which I'm not looking forward to. At all.
16 comments:
I had been wondering, but figured you would do as you did and let us know when you wanted us to know.
I found that feeling of the incredible hard to shake, even after everything had already happened. I'm glad that you're moving forward, though, incredible as it may be.
I did not go through this, but I did need some solid help, and this feeling is so, so familiar to me:
"I feel as if, as long as the transfer hasn't happened, I can feel somewhat hopeful that it's going to succeed. "
It must be about 80 times harder for you.
paperwork. how would the world run without it? ugh.
I too am glad things are moving forward, abeit slowly. It is nice to hear you are having periods of hopefulness ... for yourself! And you said that wasn't possible. I know other parts will be tough and unavoidable. But know in some way that we are with you.
In the meantime, I'll be hoping all the time for you.
I am hoping for you that all goes well.
I really identify with your feelings about your upcoming cycle and share many of them. I'm glad things are moving forward despite the delays.
i recognize a little of that type of hope...so long as it doesn't have to be tested yet, it feels kinda good. in an amorphous way, hazy...like potential. turning potential into actual is, for me, always terrifying.
yeah, i get that...before whatever IF procedure...there is hope. its after that's the b.itch.
i seretly hoped my IVF cycle would be cancelled. until it did.
thinking of you. xoxoxo
i'm with you on this one. the fact that you have to be there for the transfer...when you don't want to...that sucks. and all just to sign a piece of paper???
hopefully the anticipation is worse than the actual event. which, for me, usually just feels empty and numb.
Well, best wishes nonetheless.
hope is a powerful thing
Wait, you need to be, um, right there? In the room? Right outside? Do they check id's or something? Seems a bit overkill/comical/odd. But I concede your point. And hey, your blog, talk about what you want us to know. I'll hazily look forward with you and hope a nice post pops up somewhere in there. best.
I always thought everything we did seemed so surreal. I tried to be very practical and detailed about it to make it real but sheesh...it's, well, not quite.
I admit I'd wondered where things stood on this so it's good to see an update. Sorry for delays but here's to hoping.
It seems strange that the release cannot be signed before. That's too bad blissful ignorance is not an option.
You can always make sure you're uh, well-fortified, before you show up.
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