Tuesday, September 29, 2009

away (updated) (with good news!)

There's another ultrasound this afternoon and, though I have somewhat mixed feelings about it, mostly I'm glad that Trish lives a plane ride away (well, really two plane rides, since there aren't any direct flights), far enough away that I really can't be there for every appointment.

All through Kyrie's pregnancy, on the drive to the doctor's office, I steeled for bad news and I never never managed to bring myself to look at the ultrasound screen. And now, even after going through a successful surrogacy, it's almost impossible to believe that things could actually work out this time, that I haven't used up all my good luck.

I'll update once I hear something.

update: And everything looks fine, wonderful, perfect. The baby (and see, I can even type that word) is measuring a few days ahead. Trish has lots of pictures (though I'm not up to looking at them quite yet) and the next appointment is on October 19. You have no idea what a huge relief this is or how thoroughly I'd convinced myself that we were going to be getting bad news.

42 comments:

Ellie said...

I've been thinking of you and Trish and the baby, today.

Sometimes, a healthy distance can be a good thing. To let it go, and wait, and breathe.

Be easy on yourself today, during the waiting.

Anonymous said...

Good luck! Positive vibes a-comin' your way!

-e

erica said...

fingers crossed over here.

areyoukiddingme said...

Strangely, that's how my husband dealt with a successful pregnancy after the trauma of 2 miscarriages. He didn't go to any ultrasounds, in case he might hear (or, as he believed, cause) bad news.

Hope all is well...

Caro said...

Good luck

Bluebird said...

Makes sense to me.

Anxiously awaiting your update :)

christina(apronstrings) said...

Makes sense to me. I think the same thing in regards to my pregnancies.

Thinking good thoughts for you....

painted maypole said...

i'll be full of optimism for you :)

Aurelia said...

Yayyyy!

I get it, totally. Very happy for you!

Sarah said...

Well see you don't have to bank on your good luck, you get to share someone else's, and someone new, so you're starting over with a fresh undepleted supply. So it's silly to worry it's all used up :)

Furrow said...

I'm very glad to hear this.

missedconceptions said...

It is a huge relief! I am glad that everything is progressing normally and even happier that you are feeling just a wee bit more secure.

Tash said...

Ppphhhheeeeewwwwwww . . . . .

Kristin said...

Good luck...praying for y'all!

Lindsay said...

I'm so glad that things are going well with the baby and you and Trish.
You're in my thoughts Niobe..
xo

SouthernGal said...

Happy, happy for you!

Amelie said...

That's great news, Niobe! I'm so happy for you.

LAS said...

Great news! I am so happy for you!

after iris said...

Oh, that's brilliant news. What a relief.

Bluebird said...

Wonderful! So glad you can allow yourself a sigh of relief (even if only for a moment).

Calliope said...

you said the B word! woooo!!!!
so so so fucking thrilled for you.

Hope's Mama said...

Fantastic news, Niobe. So happy for you all.

Julia said...

Phew and w00t-w00t!

Signed, pathetic excuse of a person, who missed your birthday.

Bon said...

am just so happy to hear this.

there's something lovely about seeing you type the word baby. i get that there's no guarantee, all of that, and yet something in me feels happy for this positivity.

because it takes courage. and because i like feeling happy for you.

Almost a Mother said...

Yeah for good news! I'm new to your blog, but think you are amazing and courageous and am happy for you and thinking positively and sending positive thoughts in your direction!

Sue said...

So glad it's good news!!

Sarah said...

Brilliant!

Smiling said...

:) ah good news is precious and wonderful

Azaera said...

So excited about the good news!!

Roadblocks and Roller Coasters said...

Yay! Great news! So happy for you, Niobe! :)

leanne said...

Wonderful news about the ultrasound, Niobe!! So very happy for you!!

Anonymous said...

I am glad to hear it was great news!

Ashley

entrusted said...

Hooray!
::andreajennine::

Magpie said...

happy to hear your good news.

Kami said...

Yeah!!!

I wonder if you were able to carry the last baby if this time around it would seem more possible.

It seems more possible to me, but more than than, I think, is the belief that with one child I can survive the loss of this one. Still, I haven't heard a h/b in 2 weeks and I am nervous about not hearing one at my appointment tonight.

passingwindows said...

So glad that things are going well. I don't think I would be able to look at the pictures either. Not yet.

Beruriah said...

This blog is getting positively cheerful. What with the pink cake with sprinkles and pumpkins.

So glad.

Wishing 4 One said...

Yeahhhhhh! So glad to read this. Thinking of you....

tree town gal said...

ah... love good news...

Caro said...

Yay!

lifecanbeashit said...

fantastic news!!

Hugs
xxx

excavator said...

I'm so glad for your update. Wonderful news.