Monday, August 31, 2009

the big day (updated)

Ultrasound today. I'll update once I have news.

update: So, I don't know how I feel. For the moment, there are two of them and one looks right on track in terms of size (actually measuring ahead) and heartbeat. The other one has a good heartbeat, but is measuring small and (though I'm hoping against hope that I'm wrong) I'm thinking doesn't have much of a chance.

Okay, I lied. I do know how I feel. And it isn't good.

45 comments:

Tash said...

gulp

furtherrecords said...

Wow. Has it it seemed long?

Thinking of you.

Kristin said...

Keeping my fingers crossed and praying for you.

Melissia said...

Keeping good thoughts.

afteriris said...

Holding my breath for you

The Nanny said...

Wooftie. Waiting...

rachel said...

Thinking heartbeaty embryonic (x2?) thoughts for you.

The Nanny said...

refresh refresh refresh

G$ said...

Sometimes I wish you tweeted to your blog ...

Hoping for great news

niobe said...

G$: I do tweet sometimes, though not very consistently. But I'll try to remember to tweet the results once I get them...

Julia said...

I am singlehandedly upping your stats today-- must've refreshed at least 10 times today already... Getting antsy now.
Of course I am also over my regular caffeine limit-- first day of class and all.
Am going to go look for something less repetitive than constant refreshing to do now. But I will be back. :)

Elizabeth said...

Fingers crossed! I'm trying to get back in the swing of things now that I'm back to work and seeing your good news is great!

Clementine said...

I'm thinking of you.

k@lakly said...

good thoughts, good thoughts, good thoughts....

Furrow said...

ommmmmmmmmmm

Aunt Becky said...

refresh, refresh, refresh.

Kristin said...

Gah....I NEEEEEED to know!

The Nanny said...

I'm hoping against hope that you're wrong, too.

Furrow said...

Oh, niobe. It sounds like good news to me, but I understand that it's not the definitive good news for both that you'd hoped for. Is it possible that one implanted a few days later than the other?

dj said...

I go for later implant, also. And I bet it will be the one who will always keep you on your tiptoes!

Caro said...

I hope it works out the way you want.

Karen said...

Here from LFCA, sorry it wasn't 100% good news, but I'm here hoping for the best for you.

Tash said...

Well piss. Why can't these things be yes/no, black/white, chocolate/vanilla? WHY, GOD, WHY??!!!

You know I'm thinking about you and Trish and . . . well, everything. Much love.

Julia said...

The interminable wait for the next test, and the next shoe. It sucks.
Thinking of you and Trish, and wishing you clarity.

k@lakly said...

and now we wait...some more.
xxoo

Ruby said...

Thinking of you...

Happy for one...

Hopeful for the other.

Melissia said...

I am hoping that the smaller one is the one that started out as the 5 cell and as such is that just farther behind, if you consider how much dividing they have to do at this point, it may take a while to catch up. Keeping Good Thought for both of them.

Lauren said...

Ugh. Thinking good thoughts for you.

Wabi said...

Crossing everything for you, and hoping that Melissia is right about why one is measuring behind.

Bon said...

oy. double oy.

you are on my mind, Niobe.

Anonymous said...

had 3 transferred...3 heartbeats. One measured perfect, the other TWO small.
All 3 made it. You just never can tell. Hope you get what your heart desires.

Hope's Mama said...

hanging out for the news....

Lindsay said...

I'll be praying and hoping that it all works for the best and that you have some peace of mind in the meantime.

Come on little one..keep growing!
Thanks Niobe for updating us.

I'm expecting a little one too, and if I'm not mistaken, around the same time as you!

I wish all you the best. Trish is an angel!

Kymberli said...

To slightly echo Tash, we can't get the definitive yes/no, black/white answers, but I absolutely think that you should have something that is both chocolate and vanilla tonight. Ice cream. Cake. Cookies. Lots of it. Coffee with Khalua? Vanilla milkshake with a healthy dose of Amaretto?

Thinking of you.

Kristin said...

Hoping and praying BOTH babies grow healthy and strong!

missedconceptions said...

I dread the shades of grey (or gray). I like black and white, yes and no, this or that. (But, as most of us know, even that is no guarantee.)

Good heartbeats are really what is important. You don't know the exact date of implantation, and things can vary tremendously with just a day or so difference.

When is the next u/s?

Rachel said...

Not sure how to be supportive here. I know you have more waiting ahead of you. Waiting sucks. Good luck.

Michele said...

Oh sweetie... Praying for both your babies....

Cara said...

Oh Niobe - praying that both your babies grow and thrive.

xoxo

KP said...

oh goodness, so sorry that you didn't get a more definitive answer (though is anything definitive in pregnancy, babyhood, etc?). When is the next ultrasound scheduled?

Aunt Becky said...

Oh Niobe. Sending love, light, and hope.

Parenthood For Me said...

Sending you well wishes that both babies are healthy.

Sarah said...

I hope I hope I hope for you, and both of your new little ones.

flutter said...

praying.

Dayna said...

Niobe. Hug.